As I am writing this, somewhere someone is there who has tested positive for the current pandemic Covid-19 which has shaken us to our core. Locked down in house without any specific routine or work makes way for my overthinking self to take over my sane self. Then a series of thoughts flow through my mind whose answers no one has….
We are so helpless and stuck in our own thoughts that we are unable to think about what future holds for us. Take the case of studies, I don’t even know whether the colleges will open as soon as the lockdown ends (or just when will the lockdown end), or when will they start? When can we sit in classroom without maintaining a distance from our friends without being afraid that we might contract the virus. When can we live freely without raising eyebrows at the slightest sound of sneeze and cough, without using sanitizer every 15 minutes, without thinking twice before getting in a cab/metro/local without a small thought at the back of the mind that the virus isn’t totally wiped out yet, without thinking about eveything we touch, without overthinking about the person who just brushed past you without mask, without a chaotic mind full of fear and suspicion at evey step and every interaction, without thinking about it and going on like a normal day? I don’t know that, no one knows.
We are not able to comprehend the frenzy in the state, country. Everything is blurred, making us remember all the things we took for granted. I don’t know if we will be able to walk, or stand close to someone or just hold hands while walking, if we will be able to immerse ourselves into the crowd without thinking twice, if we’ll be able to watch a movie in a theatre or shop in a mall or have street food or just enjoy little things in life which we never thought would be snatched from us so brutally.
Maybe we will, maybe we won’t but the only question which remains is will everything be okay and as it was? Will we get back what we had? Will everything be back to normal just like the good old days?
Few months back, probably in November I had written something about 2020 which I then didn’t feel like putting out there, but now when I read it again I could just smile at how wrong or clueless I was about what’s in store for me or rather the whole world. Here it is…..
In few days it’ll be 2020, last year of the decade and the most awaited year. Some months ago, 2020 seemed so far that it was used when one wanted to say about something next to impossible. Back then people thought that in 2020 there would be flying cars, robots for househelp and in shops, driverless taxis and cars, or maybe supersonic gadgets which will transport you to the desired destination in minutes. Or maybe teleporting if your luck would have it. But here we are fighting over a mere error about where the cheese should be in a burger emoji. The debacle between Apple and Google was a huge hit. Seriously! Is this what we should be doing? Rather than having a huge technological revolution we can see our precious forests being either cut or on fire. We had expected world peace by 2020 but there are many countries like Yemen, Iraq, Syria, Libya, Sudan, whose people are fighting for a peaceful, normal life. I can’t even start on environmental crisis, basically everything is going to be out of control if we don’t try to save the earth right now. But anything can happen in this weird world right!!. A simple reddit meme inspired a Youtuber Mr Beast aka Jimmy Donaldson to take up a challenge of planting 20 million trees by 2022. So the world today which is nothing less than a dystopian novel might have some interesting things to look forward into 2020, the year which may have miracles stored in for us. May a dream of a perfect world be fulfilled in 2020 and it’ll be a happy place to be in.
Internet, which is the best thing happened to us and is close to us than most of the people in our lives is kind of ruling us rather than helping us. It tries to establish control over your barely used brains. Just check out a latest mobile or a book on Amazon and boom! you’ll see the same thing on every site and app you open. Sometimes we tend to give in and buy the thing even if we don’t really need it. This is what internet does, plays brain games with us. Internet algorithms are tracking our each and every move constantly. They continuosly change and try to adapt to our likes and dislikes. Then the same likes and dislikes are used to manipulate a person into believing something which he may not do so in general. We ourselves sometimes feed some of the information to the internet in the process of seeking validation. Hard to believe but internet surely has succeeded in keeping us hooked to it by the never-ending Netflix series which we strive to finish in a day because “FOMO”. We often find ourselves clicking on the next episode at 2:00 am even though we know we have to get up and go out early in the morning. Here, the internet is successful in destroying our beauty sleep without us realising it. Social media knows how to keep us engaged, which we do by clicking pictures everytime we eat a fancy dish, watch a movie, travel or just do something new. Snapchat has topped in this tactic of tricking us into using the app for most silly reasons. We constantly seek validation so that we make ourselves believe that we are on the right track even though sometimes it isn’t. It is funny but true how much an average individual spends time on social media just for passing the time or to trick themselves into thinking that they are doing something whereas they are just mindlessly scrolling the unending Instagram page. Yes, even I am included in it. Well after penning my thoughts down about internet and how it is luring us into the black hole, I must get back to my phone so that I don’t miss out on new memes or trending hashtags or just some cute cat videos.
Politics! Generally a prefix ‘dirty’ is added to this word. But since few days the politics in Maharashtra has turned out to be quite funny. There were elections as usual and everyone knew eventually what was gonna happen, but providing the citizens were bored and everyone went to work, school, colleges, everything was very monotonous, the formation of the government took a different turn. Those who were supposed to come into power didn’t get the chance to do so and someone else who had no chances were suddenly thrown into the spotlight. Those who had promised to be there for each other through thick and thin betrayed the other when they found someone else with whom they had better prospects, just like present day teenage relationships. The statements made by them are nothing less than that of a stand-up comedian. Amidst this tug-of-war someone else took control and the warring groups haven’t yet decided whom they really want to be with. All this is very nerve wrecking for those who are involved in this but the real fun is experienced by the citizens and the young people (including me) who have suddenly shifted from Netflix to news to witness the thrilling series of events taking place. I don’t know if we should worry about this or just wait for things to fall in place, but politics went from being boring to exciting thing very fast. We did not see this coming at all !!!
Everthought that you always lie in the middle..?? like not on either sides, because you are balanced or just the options are not for you..??
This happens when you are more or less belonging to both the sides and you don’t really fit in. The real tiff starts now. You realise that you don’t fit in, and eventually we tend to think that we are not like others, we are different and we perceive it as a negative feature. But actually it is opposite, infact it is the best thing anyone can ever feel ..’NOT FITTING IN’
I know this may sound very weird and maybe stupid but in reality we are not made to fit in. Every person has his own qualities, his own aura, his own personality which defines him and seperates him from the other beings. But it is a common mindset of society that everyone should be same and hence everyone tries to be like someone else.
We feel different because all others are same.
Everyone wants to be noticed but no one wants to be different. Always the odd one catches our eye, always the shiny object reflects more light in a heap, always the mismatched one grabs our attention. So be the odd one, be the shiny object, mismatch and wear it like Sherlock Holmes wears his coat, full of grit.
Like our thumbprints we all are made unique. Joining the bandwagon is just a choice made by us due to undue pressure by society and the world which wants us to be like everyone else dissolving our unique thoughts and ideas. Now its time to listen to your thoughts because they are what make you an amazing human, they are who push you to take your decisions, they will guide you when no one will. Your thoughts are gold, they never perish, they only shine. Your thoughts are not made to match anyone else’s.
“If you don’t fit in then you are in the right place”
“You are made to stand out baby not fit in”
We are so stuck in this monotonous life that right from birth we are running after some or the other thing. Running in this rat race and winning is the aim of every second person. We try to get ahead of someone so much that most often we forget for what we are running and end up going nowhere
For a person like me wandering anywhere in dense forests, or at the half ruined and half magnificent fort, near a flowing river, at a dark cave covered with thick curtain of greens is just a wish to be completed after completing what we are running after. Interestingly we never seem to complete our race because it is a never ending cycle of being perfect in someone else’s eye. Because we always want to be better than others, we want to achieve more than others.
Actually its not our fault because we are made to think like this since childhood. In school we are made to study so that we can top the class but the thing is we should be made to study so that we can know how things work. We are always taught that studying is the only option, but in reality having knowledge is the only option. Having skills to put your study into work is the only option.
This does not mean that we should not study or we should not be competitive, infact we should be competitive but we should know where we are going, what is our destination, even if you don’t know the destination you should atleast know your track rather than just running towards something.
And also this journey should be more like a traveling kind of journey where we peep out of the window and let the cool breeze pass through our hair and the mellow sunshine shining on our cheeks and and warmth in the atmosphere cuddling us rather than the hectic one where we worry about how to reach, when will we reach, what should be the next thing to do and all those anxious thoughts. Because worrying will not fasten the speed nor it’ll solve problems. So better enjoy the journey.
Can we try to reduce our speed in this race so that we can fuel our happiness, passion, joys and then start again with more enthusiasm and more energy which will probably take you closer to your ultimate goal.??
I was born to fly not walk, to dream not live, I was born for real things which are out of reach of everyone (atleast I think so).
Sometimes when this world clutches me in its burning wings..I feel like running away into woods or deep jungle without any money and intentions just like Chris did in INTO THE WILD.
I have thoughts which are beyond everyone’s thinking capacity. I just get lost deep into my thoughts where no sane person can enter and even if it enters it can’t reach till the core of my thoughts.
I always think that why are we put in this world like we keep pawns in chess , because I know there is an obvious reason for this. Human race is not just for inventing things and then inventing more things to avoid misuse of previous things. We are born for more big things rather than to just live and die unnoticed.
Have you not ever wondered that what is beyond this whole solar system…I mean where this all ends..? Everything has an end and this too has. And what is beyond that end. I have this question since I was 12. Even now I don’t have answer for this.
What if earth never existed…then obviously there would never be human race nor any animals….then who created this..who created all the stars and planets…. what will remain if all humans die…what is the purpose of all these things.??
This piece of writing is specially for people like me…for them to know that they are not alone and there is someone in some corner of the world who thinks same as they think….